All photos taken from Breanne of Heima Photohtaphy.
We all have balls in the air, right? You know. The many hats. Those hats for me include: wife, mom, friend, entrepreneur, and slightly over ambitious in all things.
Let me tell you. This has been a HARD season for me. A season of transition. Not just in motherhood with the addition of another baby, but transition of self as a whole.
I got married at 21. I didn’t know what marriage was. I don’t like saying I didn’t know who I was back then, because I think I did. But you’re right, I didn’t know who I would become. I knew my short comings. I knew the struggles I had to go through to grow in my character, education, relationships, career and faith.
My husband and I had visions and plans during those younger years: jobs, car, home, babies. BAM! But the “what’s next” has never really been explored. So, I’m here now. I have my babies. I’m home with them. I have a husband. A house. A car. Great friends. Live close to family. But, there is a shift. I’m also an entrepreneur and I would have never known this five years ago when my first daughter was born. And I love it. But I also love my family. And I’m a dreamer. And I want to explore this. I want vision for my family, my career, my friendships, my health etc.
Here’s the rub: I don’t know how to balance it all. I’m struggling to vision and believe in myself or to even dream. I don’t really even know what “dreams” are in this season. One thing that is VERY true for me – I will not simply “survive”. I won’t do it. I’m not dying. I’m not sick.
In different seasons or circumstances, we do simply need to survive … like my diabetes with Pete and my carb deprivation. #worst. Sleepless baby nights. But when it comes to LIFE? When it comes to LIVING? I can’t LIVE in that space of survival mode as my main mode. I did once. I lived in this place of anxiety, fear, doubt, false security … what if I fail … what if it doesn’t work out … let’s just stay safe.
Knowing that I don’t want to live there? I need some help. Yup. It’s okay to ask for help and I am SO excited. What help? A coach. A business/life coach. I saw a lot of stigmas about coaches on the inter-web. Guess what! I have some too. I’m hoping to share my experience with YOU so we can learn together. I want to fill in the gaps from where I am now to where I Want to be. I want vision, clear commitments, and a plan to get there!
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